none other January...
the commercial shooting day!!! no one's got the facts like we do!!! LOLx
the ladies in the caps advertisment!!
the WhacKiest BirthDay ParTy of SATHIA!!!
the SURPRISE of the BIRTHDay!!!
the war of the POOL!!! friggin wet all over all the way home!!!
the souvenirs from the juniors of the explorers
my unique chemical mixed by the man myself!!!
the monk drew BY aYh!!!
a gift for me:P
the revamped SC room!!! a product from a whole lot of effort invested by us!!!
our beloved ms tang!!! we will miss you presence sooner than we expect.... wish you all the best in your foray into the editorial board!!!
'i am far from perfect...'I am at my wits end
I do not know how to solve my troubles
To get myself out of my misery
It’s VeXiNg me out
I am burdened with stress
Will y’all please SPARE me?
My blank stare is leading to no conclusion
But there is really nothing else I can do
My intelligence is failing me
Hopes are counting on me
Yet I am completely helpless
I wanted to be oblivious to everything around
But this will blow out your last straw
I AM AWARE OF THAT
However I am totally juiced out…
Tell me what to do...
L'aide de mai viennent à moi
Do I Even Know Myself?So say that we know ourselves better than others do…
But I don’t seem to know myself at all
Am I a sickening bastard that people can’t wait to slaughter?
Or am I a mad beast that friends can’t wait to get rid off?
Somehow or rather, I feel that I am a burden to everyone
I supposed no one want to be with me
Getting all touchy whenever I am around…
Je pense que je suis un diable yeux dans mes amis des'
I hope all these is only what I fear
and not a solitary truth that I dare not face
'another day has gone, i stood all alone......'
I've never been able to expel the feeling of loneliness
it is a scary feeling,
the emptiness and blanknessevery time i sit and ask myself
do true friends ever exist?
and i never ever have an answer to that.
am i expecting too much?
or is it just wishful thinking to ever have a true friend
i hope
'friends' is not something that exist only in fairy tales
"Shrouded by uncertainty throughout my entire journey..."
Carry Me
Like You Are My Brother
Love Me Like A Mother
Will You Be There?
Weary
Tell Me Will You Hold Me
When Wrong, Will You Scold Me
When Lost Will You Find Me?
But They Told Me
A Man Should Be Faithful
And Walk When Not Able
And Fight Till The End
But I'm Only Human...
In Our Darkest Hour
In My Deepest Despair
Will You Still Care?
In My Anger
And My Sorrows
Through Our Doubts
And Frustrations
In My Violence
In My Turbulence
Through My Fear
And My Confessions
In My Anguish And My Pain
Through My Joy And My Sorrow
In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow
I'll Never Let You Part
For You're Always In My Heart....
"Every damn day is the same shade of Grey"
HeyI used to have a little bit of a plan for my life
Used toHave a concept of where I stand
But that concept slipped right out of my hands
Now I don't really even know who I am
Yo,
what do I have to say
Maybe I should do what I have to do to
BREAK FREE and
What ever happens to you, we'll see
But it's not gonna happen with me
Just like that
Now you've got a face to pain
And the
devil's got a fresh new place to play
In your brain like a maze you can never escape
please do hold me
like the River Jordan
And i will then say to thee
you are my friend....
this post is for punks who keeps saying bad things behind me
"before you hate me, try hard to love me..."
i am not a fool, and pls do not treat me like one
filthy punks, just shut up, thank you
the measure of a man is in his magnitude of his ability to forgive and handle situations...
do u think you can beat me in that?
come on
shut up.. just shut up :)
and for you ppl who just cant resist the temptation of talking behind my back,
kindly shoot it right up onto my face, not behind me...
and pls do not feel friggin' happy abt it and think i know not a single dumb shit of it!!!
in case u do not know, that's a making of a weakling... you're worthless if u do that!!
before you ever judge anyone, please do judge yourself!!
THE
FIRST EVER EXPLORERS' CAMP ENDED!!!
what can i say about this camp? i thought it was
awesome:p
well, my job for the camp was basically one of a transporter!!! hahax
shifting things here and there!!!
BOOx!! A.P was supposed to help me but he walked out on me...
LOLx
at least, he did help me a small little tiny weeny bit!!
moving 3 canteen tables!!!!!
and guess what, he moved all the canteen table himself!!!
AMAZING, the MACHO MAN did it with a standing ovation from everyone in the CAnTeeN.
a little limelight for the ever-hotty MacHo mAn!!
and, all the way till the night, there was loads of laughter and smiles!!!
nurul, yuehua and i went to J.P to collect the eXpenSive camp tee!!!
(groans) at least it is
NICE(cheers)
if the afternoon was not wacky enough, the NIGHT promised to be a whole lot beta!!!
OMG!!! P.A!!!!
A.P and I shifted a big biggy plant from the corridor into the toilet cause
we thought the toilet was to suffocating... LOLx
but it sure looks nice in that flooded toilet:P
what a time of fun during P.A!!!
beijing olympics in the toilet!!!!
hahax! for all the wet joy in the toilet, we were left trembling the moment we left the toilet,
thanks to the cold breeze of the night!!! GAh-gaZ
almost forgot about the night walk!!!
that was absoulety pure nightwalkish( what is that!?!) !!!
i was screaming like a ghost i guess...
hahax, izzy, C tong and i were like blowing unblowable balloons all the way out to the night.
who cares, man that was fun, blew balloons only to know they were not required!!
Tootpaste galore was in place throughout the entire event..
who could have forgotten about that!!!
to think i was cursed to have eternal sore throat by the camper when i screamed at their ear!!!
what the hack was that!@#$!@#$!@% hahax!!!
the crappy me pop in a cute phrase during the debrief as well!!
know why u must have
endurance?
cause
it helps in constipation!!!
OMFG!!!! i cant believe i said that!!!
the nocturnal life at midnight was like -_-""
dots, for people who are puzzled about wads nocturnal life is,
it is a name to make initiation sound explorer-ish!!
the next day was fun-filled, like duh!!!
the P.T, and everything, who else could have forgotten about S.B.B( aka stand by bunk)
nightmarish for some, i guess!!
after the camp ended!!!
A.P popped out with a nice joke at the expense of himself!!
A.P became ELMO!!!
super funny!!! highlight of the camp!!!
soon, we started cleaning up the mess we made!!!
at the end, we ended up spraying water at each other!!
poor UMMU, i mis-aimed the water at her!!
and her undies was like unfortunately wet!!!
hahax, sorri:(
went to mac after the whole hilarious cleaning up was over!!!
went home with eileen:)
talked abt a couple of stuff!!
and when i reached home,
POOF!!!
i am dead:D
explorers camp committee!!!
"helping is a graceful act"
many people do not embrace and care about helpfulness
i always thought that being helpful is the most basic and gracious thing a human can do...
it appears it me i am terribly wrong
but now, that is no longer important
it appears to me that human aren't the only helpful being
sometimes, even animals do care for each other...
a while ago,
i happened to bump into a dead crow on the road...
a really pitiful sight to behold just to say the least
to have a death caused by a cruel stampede by a car
instead, it is not the cause of the incident which strike me the most
rather, it is the sudden congregation of crow around the dead crow
which really puzzled and bewildered me
after a brief stun and a moment of thought
it appears to me that a 'funeral' of that crow is taking place....
the crows have gathered in a wide circle swirling around the dead crow..
the mourns of those crows were deafening
it was as if they were bidding goodbye to that dead crow
their loyal companion once, their friend before.
even little animals like birds show compassion to their buddies...
the question is does human show compassion for each other when it really matters?
it appears that my choice seems to be otherwise...
a start of a wonderful journey to come....
THE ARENA!!! STAR SQUAD:p
shaping up after the make-up
the glamourous STARs
the shirts with look like air hostress of the CHINA airlines!!! LOLx
team pose?
the prints after the pizzas(delicious)!!
the beginning
Sometimes I wonder why things are due in absolute…
Won’t there ever be a maybe, a possibility for you to fall back on
A decision maker will never understand how it feels, do they?
Well technically, they were once supposed to be bound by decisions made
But, either they are too lazy to bother, or they just do not know how it feels, which really do bother me to say the least
A wrong decision will lead to a awful depression if the decision made is a god damn ABSOLUTE
Can’t decision makers ever spare a feeling for us people who are circumscribed by decision?
At least give us an alternative, another lifeline to get us out of a catastrophe which u think is a jolly blessing for us…
I am restricted by decisions
and i am sick and tired of it
Worn out by the absurd gibberish of those f*****s
bloody decisions
i never wanted to say this, never wanted to admit it...but i realized that it is time to keep in check with realityto differentiate between the rights and the wrongs...i was so cavalier to take things for grantedto let things slip away from my foolish handall thanks to my damned indecision and cursed pride
And I don't know,
whether to laugh or cry
whether to live or die
but it just cuts like a knife....
it really do hurt
each pierce and each sting
i can feel it, i really can...
GRRR!! I am A STupId FrEak!!!
i hate to
FaLL!! i hate to
FaIL!!
why have all the words that lead to my suffering always start with a f***ing "F"
i have
fallen again...
a fall always causes bruises after a loud "thud"...it is what happen after the loud thud that determine what u are...
it is how u recover that show people what u are made off...
it is where u fall on that effect the outcome....
i am afraid of falling down...
that feeling, that chill, that emptiness always leave me scarred
a scar that is etched onto me which results in a phobia
an irremovable fear of dread and horror
i am embroiled in a state of metamorphosis
a state that is changing me, perhaps for good
it is driving me on the brink of insanity....
am i still what i am?
the WhacKiest BirthDay ParTy of SATHIA!!!
the war of the POOL!!! friggin wet all over all the way home!!!
my unique chemical mixed by the man myself!!!
a gift for me:P
our beloved ms tang!!! we will miss you presence sooner than we expect.... wish you all the best in your foray into the editorial board!!!
explorers camp committee!!!
shaping up after the make-up
the glamourous STARs
the shirts with look like air hostress of the CHINA airlines!!! LOLx
team pose?
the prints after the pizzas(delicious)!!