when you are bothered, you are bothered..
everything seem so far-fetched to me,
things are not going the way i want them to,
neither is life lively for me anymore...
everything single stuff is in a big heapy mess,
and yet there i am,
being an idiot,
trying to be oblivious to everything around me,
hoping that a miracle will happen...
A FAT HOPE OF MINE!!!
i remembered the happy times...
ms ng came back today!!!
man, our whole class went nuts!!!
she still the same old her,
but we were just not the same old us...
it's just indescriable, beyond my words...
but the feeling is still the same...
man, i guess i am in ecstasy, my words all schrewd!!!
LOLx
the joy of life is to appreciate...
maybe for today's post, i will dedicate a post
to none other than our debate trainer!!!
AMANDA!!!!
i just want to say a thank you to all the things that you have done
thanks for the consoling after our loss
thanks for all your wonderful teachings
and thanks for all the things that you have done for us...
you too have been the most helpful, sweetest person...
i doubt we could even have made it past the first round without you...
and yeah!!! the pain have past as you promised
seem like every debater will, as you said...
and everything's ok again:p
photos will be uploaded soon...
look forward to seeing you SOON!!!
the pain will pass, but the scars remain...
without those debate training,
there seem to be a missing crater in my life....
hmm, i really miss those days,
those times when we sit together and discuss together
although a week have even yet to pass...
i guess good things are never meant to last
everything just seem like a fairytale
started so amazingly, and ended so abruptly...
in life, i think
we win some and lose some
maybe i am a little too hard on myself...
at least i know i got a new sister:p
hope we keep in contact though!!!
a beautiful chapter reluctantly ended, and a dawn of something new
my speech, my script, my rebuttals
totally a fucked-up piece of shit
i screwed up, yeah!!!
how stupid of me...
totally embarrasing, totally bad
just utterly dumb!!!
what a big let-down!!!
i knew i could have....
nah, STOP IT!!!
I SUCK!!!
yeah!!!
like totally....
i am no longer what i was, i changed....
no one was by my side
when my whole life came crashing on me...
i was left all alone
and always thought it was a nightmare
when i woke up in the middle of the night
and yet,
i never really thought that i'd be left alone
house used to be a bubbly place,
and again it changed...
everything's drained
colours all gone
pure monotony....
i am so used to this quietness already
and so used to keeping everything within me
maybe i will die of combustion, someday
but again who cares...
everyone thinks i am
trying to be an emotional kid
trying to be an attention seeker
no one ever understand my turbulence
and the tears that i shed
and the fact is, i no longer care abt what u guys think
undeniably,
i changed...
p.s. ain't no one in the globe i 'd rather see
Memories are always meant to be beautiful
